cobaltika

not from this weekend. but from the last time i wandered around my town. it seems a long long time ago, but it *was* this month. sometime… i have been so obsessed with the moving thing, that i seem to have lost track of time and even good sense. now i am settling down though. i probably won’t die from mold poisoning in the next month or so and i am already such crap on paper that having a broken lease, even for a very good reason, isn’t something i need. and i just do not have the energy to put up a big self-righteous fight. and i DREAD moving again, so i am procrastinating. have given notice. and still looking. just not in a crazed way.

from this weekend. to Kansas City to visit my poet and try to relax a little. it worked pretty well! brunch at Happy Gillis Cafe and some thriftshopping with poor results. some wallowing and a good hike at Fleming State Park. for some reason i was really nervous about copperheads, but did not see one. whew. it was sweet to be in the woods by a lake though. very hot. lots of cold crunchy salad for dinner. and water. Kaufmann Gardens (both the fancy gardens and the natural ones) in the morning - then TERMINATOR SALVATION! wheeee! (shut up!) Cancun tortas, the grocery store and an air-conditioner into the poet’s window. then home. and a day off in which many household chores were accomplished. then back to the grindstone. yes, that’s right - i haven’t touched the artTable for nearly a week. but there are things in my head. at least.

King Tubby’s seasonal psychosis has befallen him. he yowls constantly for no good reason. acts hungry but won’t eat. just yowls. i want to strangle him. but i probably won’t.

i know i know. it has been forever. not like me, huh?

well - since i dropped in to delete all the spam comments i thought i would lay down a few words, too. just in case there is any wonderment. nothing pretty to show. nope. not even random wandering-around pictures. the only images i have made in the last week or so are documents of the mold growing along the edges of my carpet, the floorboards and the legs of my nice wooden chest-of-drawers. in my bedroom.

trust me, you don’t want to see. but i needed the documentation.

other hours have been taken up by (1) the fluorescent prison, (2) home-hunting (i am so grateful that tinaMerlot came along about now. she makes the nightmare of finding a new place so much easier than riding a bike! yeah! and it *is* a nightmare. i didn’t really want to move again until i was finished here. but i have to. so i am looking at all kinds of options. and it is exhausting. but kind of fun. isn’t that libran?) and (3) putting on my ancient nightgown, getting a glass of wine and reading a paperback until i fall asleep.

i’m sure i’ll return eventually.

meet my new companion! (my familiar?)

we are going places together!

yes indeed, i am no longer a car-less person. after over one year.
sure, it was amusing for a while. rebellious. so green. so urban. but so … claustrophobic! enough elements in my life have changed and will be changing in the near future, that having a little old used car to get around in at times seemed a very good idea. and i think i got incredibly lucky! tinaMerlot is a 95 toyota corolla, with a bunch of miles, pretty dinged up in places, “lots of cool stickers” and an effing tilt steering wheel!!! (i love the smallest details.) she seems to go pretty well! sort of vibrate-y and noisy, but hey - i’ll just stick in a CD! wheeeeeeeeeeee! adventures to come!

(don’t worry, i’m taking her to a mechanic this week. i want to take good care of her!)
(ps - i got her plates today!)

the black was really supposed to be the back. but when i saw how glamorous the black was with the chosen images i went … hmmmm … and finished making the pieces with the black as front. when i was finished, i felt unsettled, because i just don’t use dark or colors. in the past few years, except for a few stray pieces, i work pale. so i also did a pale set, which felt more comfortable. but it was fun to break out of the mold. and now look! a choice!

these and more new work on ETSY tonight. lovely things, if i do say.

east austin, manor road : april 2009

i wish i had some now.

i wish i were not such a slacker about making my texas photoShow

well. onward.

random favorite image from a random wander
migod. i have so many of them. what to do?

i have been up forever already. same yesterday. i don’t *WANT* to wake up at 6am on the WEEKEND. i want to sleep in. perhaps i am subconsciously trying to grab as many of *my* hours and fill them. sometimes that happens. yesterday was very productive - all laundry, cleaning, seasonalClothingOrganization done. rode bike to traci’s to tend to the cats and birds, then to the library and home. i have realized that i HATE bicycling. i always want to like it. sensible, green, healthy - but dammit it HURTS. even the smallest hills make me want to fall off and lie in the street and weep. i couldn’t even look at things, because i was afraid i would miss a car running a stop sign and die. having only one wheel with brakes didn’t help. my knees hurt so much later in the day and i felt so OLD (and mad). then one glass of wine and some (bad idea) pasta later, and i was comatose for the rest of the evening. i never touched the artTable.

today i am making up for it though and have been there since 7:30 am. i will NOT ride my bike to traci’s today. instead i will WALK. yes, it is a long way, but i NEED long hikes on the weekends. either i have been gone or the weather has sucked and i have not done them for over a month. there is actually sun today. i can take my camera and dawdle and make yet *more* random favorite images. yeah! i don’t have any other mundane work to do today and i packed the pasta away for work lunches and won’t touch it. it is artDay!

it is spring and the energy is shifting. aCHOO! so is the damned oak pollen!
onward…