cobaltika

now it is really summer.

when i walk out in the morning, the air is not refreshing. but i am grateful for each spit of air that lifts my hair off my neck for a moment. it is much easier to lift now, too, as i had about half of it whacked off this week. funny how *no one* at work notices … to me it is such a dramatic difference. ok, one person did this morning. maybe it looks so awful they don’t want to acknowledge it? or maybe scienceTypes are just not as visual. oh well. it surely feels better.

last night i waited until later and cooler to walk to the post office and the library for some audio books for the LONG trip. i noticed a larger number of people than usual in the area and when in the library could hear lively music coming from outside. while i was checking out, i noticed a flyer that said BRAVE COMBO was playing tonight - IN THE LIBRARY PARKING LOT? IN LAWRENCE KANSAS? how bizarre! that used to be one of my favorite gocrazydancing bands in Texas. one time they played at a wedding in Wisconsin that the girls’ dad and i went to and we almost went berserk with joy and gocrazydancing. yes, it was really them. and people were gocrazydancing in the lawrence library parking lot. People. My. Age. too. i felt like i was on another planet. why don’t i know these people? these and the ones who decorate their bikes and ride in parades? why don’t i have FUN? so i hung out for a short while, watching, somewhat delighted. then i felt very sad and lonely so i went home and paid the bills.

this will be the last you hear of me for a while. 5am tomorrow starts the Big Adventure of moving Margaret to a new college. Kansas-Texas-NewMexico-Arizona-California-Nevada-Utah-Colorado-Kansas. surely i will make some pictures?

ps- as much as i love hearing from people via comments, i am going to turn them off while i am gone, because those a-hole spammers are just out of control and i won’t be able to keep up with them while i am gone and they will NOT be allowed to jam up *my* journal with their garbage. thank you for understanding!

i have been mildly lamenting my lack of interest in artStuffs and imageMaking this summer. i feel so dull and uninspired. i know part of it is personal issues, but it just seems to be my time of creative lethargy. summer. ugh. i even tend to get fatter in the summer. worse ugh. but i always forget and beat myself up about it all.

this morning, while looking for a pretty picture to play with, i checked my June2007 image folder. ha. there were about 20 images saved - total! some folders have hundreds …

it *is* a pretty summer though, actually. it has not been too hot. most days i have not needed the AC until late in the day. from all of the rains, there is much clover and there are many sweet things growing. even the grass smells sweet. truly a perfumed air out there. my nose is more stimulated than my eye lately.

well. onward…

there.

i’m doing it. even though it feels weird.
at least it is not fake.

no picture. no art. nothing to show.
sure, i could dig up something. i have TONS of stuff.
but it wouldn’t be current or authentic.
and besides i am feeling so rebellious. so longing for change.

it is an odd transitional period right now for me
and i am mostly just interested in clearing out and lightening my load
(in preparation for the change, which *must* come)
i am sleepWalking and a little dizzy still, which requires regal movement.
i am attempting patience. i can’t really *do* anything right now.
so i am slapping leftover paints onto book pages.
clipping and glueing stuff i want to save. throw the rest away.
nothing pretty, interesting or marketable. just personal stuff.
no new images. i’m just so BORED of everything in my environment.
i know that is not a creative thought, but i am indulging it anyway.

in a week and a half, i will move margaret to california.
then come home and begin to make my own plans.
i have various scenarios of change in my head and i am flexible&open.
i have made some inquiries&initiations. i research.
we’ll just see what happens.

throughGlasses (detail) (click image for BIG)

i’ve been coming across so much cool stuff as i clean and sort and simplify and organize. i discovered all these recycled kitchen plaques that i spent some grubby hot weekend days creating a couple of years ago. i don’t think i ever scanned and showed them, so i scanned them and listed them on my etsy shop. they are silly, weird and a couple are downright wicked and definitely worth looking at. for amusement if nothing else!

otherwise, time marches on. yesterday i had to stay home and still, after waking with a spinny head and nausea. today is better, but i am still dull and sleepy from meclizine. i guess it is a combination of stress and magic crystals in my ear canals. i haven’t felt like making new things, but i have been undertaking massive cleanups of art supplies and sewing supplies. even my bead boxes are sorted and identified with nifty dymo labels. it was fun to use my dymo again. i was sorry when dymo label text in artwork became ordinary. there have been storms. much rain. but we still have a roof.

i am looking forward to my massive road trip at the end of the month. plans have changed and now i am even *more* excited. i am going to see a saguaro!!!

definitely not much going on here. my greatest delight lately is finding new homes for things. or disposing of them altogether. there was plenty of that going on this weekend. i did something crazy alright, but i’m not sure if i will tell. some artists would understand. some would not. but it felt right to me. i photographed them all first though. anyway, again, at the end of the weekend, the big alley trash was full and that felt great. then on monday to the post office to send out treasures to new homes. and that felt great, too.

i’ve been seeing this mullen everywhere this year. even in my yard. i did not do ONE BIT of gardening this year. i would like tomatoes and basil and i do love flowers, but i just didn’t have the right energy or even know if i would be there through the summer. i still don’t. i was excited thinking margaret was coming back this weekend but found out it won’t be until the following weekend. sniff. i don’t blame my sister for wanting to keep her!

what else? the plumber. the dentist. summer. the fluorescent prison. freecell.

could i be more boring? i think not!

there is still time! they are not exactly selling like hotcakes, but at least they all have bids and watchers. whew. the reserve prices are really low and they are an excellent bargain, even the ones not “perfect”. 11 more hours today. click image if interested. there are also still many many prepared books and other things to choose from on my etsy.

ok, that’s over with. the spamming marketing. what else? after a refreshing yesterday, wherein i thought it might be nice to get up and go wandering with my camera, since i have been having fun with pictures this week, it is already stuffyHot, so i am not inspired. i might anyway. later. when one has to get up and out fast every single morning, its hard to do the same thing on weekends, too, and i like to dawdle.

there are no thrilling plans for the weekend. the house seems very grubby so that should be tended to. there is my ongoing project of clearing out Stuff, which is coming along nicely. then there is the artTable, where i would definitely like to spend some time. i am booked-out and at the end of projects there, so not sure what i would like to do. maybe something crazy. i am definitely in the mood for something crazy. anything, please.