cobaltika

reconstructed-mind may be coming to a timely end after nearly 7 years. it seems my mind is actually just fine. i have learned to work with it! and i am still trying to simplify simplify simplify. one only wants to spend so much time online. there have been times that i have tried to maintain my artSite *and* two or more journals. that is too much! i love the way this one works for me, but it seems a bit sterile and alienish. and i’m frankly tired of the name. of course, i will still ramble online, not the miserable stuff or naked pictures of the past, but as a daily document. i seem to need that. and i sometimes also seem to need my “community”, even an alien like me. so i am returning to livejournal. i don’t love that place, or the visuals, but i do like my people and it works for now.

it seems that cobaltika is becoming an artBlog of sorts, so maybe i will let that happen. the mundane, daily rambles will be here.

this site will stay up for a while, since i have managed to put *all* archives from the past 6 or so years here (not quite public yet, though). but i won’t post here again, i don’t think. never say never, of course.

it is still winter despite a temperature increase yesterday that allowed almost *all* of the ice to finally melt off the sidewalks. it was wonderful to be able to walk home quickly without fear of sliding on a sly patch of ice. in the land of car culture, the roads are cleared fairly quickly, but not the sidewalks. nope. walking has been terrifying lately. one’s choice is to walk in the street which is also terrifying. people become monsters in their cars, i’m afraid. i see it every day.

it seems sleep is the most interesting activity to me this week, although we did go to 2-for-1 at liberty hall last night to see Pan’s Labyrinth. it was brutal and fanciful. very wonderful. i was surprised to find that i barely needed the subtitles. as i am taking no class this semester, i meant to read in Spanish and study art history independently. but am i doing it? no. i am sleeping.

i keep thinking it would be nice to go out this weekend and make some pictures, play with new(old) cameras. i long to see something *different*. but i know exactly what i would see.

kansas.

yesterday was terribly cold, but for some reason i did not want to stay in and hibernate. the light was curious. we dressed warmly and went out for saturday errands, post office, groceries, visit the insuranceMan, etc. not enough. i wanted to go out with my cameras into that light. i took Miss Jemima and my Brownie Hawkeye - with color film now! my poet thought he might walk with me. first we went to the arts center, so i could examine the Carol Ann Carter pieces again. *much* better without people around and slowly. then wandering. i lost him when he realized i was inclined to poke around in the alleys shooting snow-covered chairs and pink walls. so i walked alone and it was grand. everything was bleak on the surface, but upon closer inspection seemed quite wonderful. an odd day. i stayed out far too long and was very cold.

came home. still did not want to stay in. we went to see Babel and were impressed. very. finally home to stay. to the nest with a book until my face landed in it. a good saturday.

today i am staying in.

so far.

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