cobaltika

finally it is the weekend. one would think that having a monday off would make it a “short week”, but ha ha not. the world around me is becoming more crispy, drying up, some leaves turning yellow and falling. it is now very hot. there is the tiniest bunny in the yard. i see him nibbling dry grass. king tubby is inside at my feet. the bunny is safe. there have been many bunnies this year. they don’t eat the garden. the garden is so lush i can barely walk through the path now. the tomatoes are very slow. we still need to buy them from the farmer’s market. but there will be fried okra tonight. my space bar keeps sticking. it is a mac wireless keyboard. i wonder if i can take the key off and clean it? i’m sure there is debris in there. margaret’s “new” car, her little honda civic (2001?2?) seems to have had an instant transmission death, possibly to the tune of $3000 repair. apparently this happens to them. we are outraged. honda is supposed to be a good car. none of us can afford such a thing. hopefully another diagnosis will be determined. i worry about her dilemmas so much. she is so young to have to be dealing with depressing adult shit like that. and where is my betsy? i guess she is back in boston in her own life. i miss her. i don’t like being so far from them. from all my family. i am going to try to paint today. or something new.

this weekend is our anniversary. my poet and i have been housekeeping together for one year. and we still like each other!

betsyScape : boston

i am supposed to be working on the magazine, but i wanted to write a little. however i am realizing i might whine, so perhaps it is not a good time. everything is actually quite fine, apart from being very artless and waiting for “holiday season” to be OVER. i do not like december. this year will be staying at home with my poet and betsy, who arrives tomorrow night! margaret chose to stay in texas with my family. they will be so happy to have her. she has been gone for almost a year now. betsy, too. it seems so strange. time passes terribly quickly.

the medieval art history final was over on tuesday. i am glad. i have decided not to take a class next spring. i’m a little burned out and i don’t really know *why* i keep doing it. i’m sure i am too chickenshit and old for grad school and the only thing i would be interested in is an MFA and they would laugh. i just know. besides i don’t have the proper credentials. i wish i could quit dreaming though. mostly i just need to do my work. but i feel i am drifting further and further away. lately i am not even making images. i *am* still looking though. and composing with my eyes. but i never seem to have a camera at hand. bad, huh? i know. partly i am disenchanted with my primary tool. i just don’t love my little Canon. i have never become comfortable with her and she doesn’t even have a NAME. i have been lusting over a Lumix FZ50. and i just might… but in the meantime i need to at least toss the jamcam in my pocket.

and i found my coat finally. a parka from Lands End. black with lots of pockets, my butt is covered and cozy gray fleece inside. LOVE.

i suppose i should work…sigh…

off to boston and a weekend in betsyWorld in a couple of hours. it will be fun, i know! and sitting on the plane with NO obligation beyond keeping the book in my lap? sigh … delightful!

then return to the bizziness…

who knows? i might even snap a little picture or two? gasp!

somewhere in texas along hwy 281 : november 2006

related to nothing in particular, as are all of the few saved images from the trip. quite random. could not do a little tour of them if i tried. which i don’t have time to do right now anyway. a long working weekend. short break for groceries. on saturday. longer break for warmClothesOnSale on sunday. i can only engage in live retail experiences 2 or 3 times per year and yesterday was one of those days i knew i could handle it, so i did. no hikes. no photowandering. have forgotten how to use my camera, i’m sure. two ok movies. well, one. omigod. i’ve already forgotten the friday one? a few pages of a new book The Thirteenth Tale. um. what else? well. at least it was two days out of the office! could i be more dull lately??

now monday. awake since 4:30am. messing around with images a little. looking for old receipts for the insurance claim. afraid i don’t have them. will have to take the 1-foot stack unfiled stack out of the drawer tonight and sort. omigod. maybe the black parka coming from Lands End will work. (fingers crossed) rather looking forward to getting on the plane on friday and doing Nothing all the way to boston. now the poet awakes. i must beat him to the shower! onward…

one of my favorite texas photos. in pam’s potteryBarn. she is still getting settled but there were some sweet details. sigh.

so this weekend is errands and work (on the KCW directory). trying to get websites up and running again. wondering why i spend so much energy on it. desk is a mess (to me). artTable. ha ha ha. hoping the sun doesn’t come out so i don’t see the dust and dirty kitchen counters. still need a coat dammit. going to Boston next weekend. maybe the one coming from Lands End will finally work. still icy outside. storm windows are down. seems way too early for all this cold but i loved wearing my purple snowBoots. need to clean out my closet. so much junk i won’t wear but won’t toss. why? um. what else? caught a mouse!! feel like i am forgetting to do things that need to be done but my mind feels so wobbly. i am still out of touch with my interior. i can tell. onward though!