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it is the longest spring. many of the trees have not made leaves. they are timid after the Big Cold. it is still quite cool. but i like being able to wear my elf boots and long skirts and a sweater in the morning for the walk up the hill. i am always so sleepy in the morning. after very hectic nights of intense dreaming. this has been another bizzy workingweek and i am so glad for friday. it was supposed to be our car weekend, but i only feel like staying home and poking around in the dirt and finding ways to get my hands dirty. and making the kitchen floor clean. i wish i would sew some new skirts, too, but … so we will have a car next weekend and go adventuring.
i keep wondering what will be the next thing to do. i won’t stay here forever. sometimes i can’t even visualize a future at all. maybe that is good, as i don’t want to dwell on the future, even if dwelling on the here is sometimes ploddish and dull and lonely. at least it is peaceful. but i miss my girls and my family so much. i would like to be closer to them. travelling is expensive. sometimes we fantasize of having a VW camper and just driving around looking at things. stopping to wander. sigh. i’m still dreamy and sleepy. and hungry.