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this image has pretty much to do with nothing. except for the fact that it was made Today.
a good day.
all weekend i worked inside, doing house things that needed doing. things ignored since before the christmas escape. one small and pleasant outing kept me from complete agoraphobia. seriously, i couldn’t believe i was staying IN on such pretty days, but … duty calls? it seemed the right time to do my year-ending/beginning rituals, since i was away at the ending/beginning. so i cleaned, tossed and sorted. i tried to catch up on both emotional and physical things. i finished the KCW Directory! (oh. finally…) i said truths. and i slept.
today - a holiday! meaning no fluorescent prison! - the artTable in nighties with coffee is always a good start. then i walked downtown with the JamCam dangling and met Traci for lunch and catch-up time, tried to buy new panties at Weaver’s but became far too frustrated, bought some little groceries at The Casbah then walked home. since then i have been in the process of completion of my 2008 journal, of which i have never showed one page, have i? well… now it is done, some of it in retrospect, of course. i played all of the CD’s that the girls and Andrew made for me in Austin, i didn’t cry over that one song that i told Betsy i would, but i have waited two weeks, so … safer … then cleaned off the artTable and readied it for … ?? … the new year at least. it feels good. i feel like i have let go lots of ugly things (within) from the last months. i am more clear and more hopeful. less frozen. less dead.
today is my new year’s day.
onward.