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this is not today, but it looks like it. i haven’t had a camera out, wandering, in weeks, it seems like. since i returned home from the holidays? it has been very cold and the sidewalks are often treacherous and i have been so busy and tired. yesterday there was a fresh and beautiful snow to walk out into at 7:30am, but there were no more AAA batteries for the pencam. and i didn’t feel like deciding what to take instead. i was late as usual anyway.
the first part of the week i am highly motivated and come home from work every evening and go straight to the artTable after dinner. by wednesday i am drooping and by thursday i am rebellious. it does not help that my space is incredibly cold, even with the little heater running. i also need to either find a new chair or a new way of working, because i am killing my upper spine. last night i just gave up and went to bed with a book. not especially better for my spine, but warmer anyway. i began reading The Road (Cormac McCarthy). and i did not go to sleep until i reached the end. jeez. i *meant* to get more sleep last night! but i could not stop. i am fascinated by post-apocalyptic culture and lifestyle and fantasize and actually dream of that world often. but i accept that my my visions are fluffy and idealistic (”back to nature”, simplicity, “people helping people”, etc) and that McCarthy’s vision is probably much more likely and accurate. terrifying and bleak. but it was a wonderful read.
anyway, it is friday thankgod. a 3-day weekend. and even though it will be a working weekend and FRIGID, i am glad for it.