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spring is definitely here. it is very beautiful and sweet but i am having a difficult time finding my usual enchantment of the season. i could not say why. i seem to have abandoned peaceful plodding for discontent and restlessness. going away for a tiny trip did not help very much. it only made me more aware of how hard it is to get AWAY from here, especially if one only has a short time and limited funds.
i have been making some rather boring nature photos, but making NO art whatsoever the past couple of weeks. of course we were away, then it was magazine time, and lets don’t forget the fluorescent prison, so hours have been limited, but there is nothing that i am eager to begin. i don’t know what to do any longer. i am SICK of piddling. yet i barely have the energy for piddling. it is all so frustrating and circular. where is my real life?
end of small whine.