cobaltika

why i am mostly quiet right now.not just because of working my BUTT off on the directory all weekend, and because the weather is cold and dreary, and i am sort of tired and in that somewhat depressive mode i get in until Jan 1. but because when i checked my bank balance on Monday morning, i found the situation with Hertz had spiralled into a nightmarish event. $500 was withdrawn from my account using my Visa check card (which must be in their computer) to cover the deductible for “my accident” (which did not occur, see previous posts if curious, i’m not writing it all down again). without my knowledge or authorization. of course i flipped out completely, first called my bank, who were incredibly helpful and kind. they suggested i speak with Hertz first and for two days i tried to contact someone who would not return calls and seemed to enjoy keeping me stewing in a panic. finally last evening, he said he would return my funds, but i am keeping the claim open at my bank, just in case he blows it off, like he did speaking with me.

i am still stunned and still feel like puking constantly. i am very fair, honest and loyal with the few businesses i work with, because i think business is mostly a necessary hassle and i prefer to keep a good karma going with the ones i work with. to be accused of lying and cheating and to have my statement of facts disregarded is sickening and affects me more than one would imagine. i know i seem like a big sturdy tough woman from the outside, but inside i am falling down and dying. this takes so much energy to deal with. also, i do not like the feeling of bitterness and even HATE that comes into me. i prefer to keep an optimistic mind and think the best of people and events. i hate feeding into the new American spirit of distrust, paranoia, and ME FIRST FUCK YOU that seems prevalent. when something like this happens, i withdraw, don’t like to speak to others, even those i love, and sleep as much as possible and try not to wake until the badness is past. and i remember why i am fairly anti-social and like to stay at my artTable and behind a camera and mostly away from the world.

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why i am mostly quiet right now.not just because of working my BUTT off on the directory all weekend, and because the weather is cold and dreary, and i am sort of tired and in that somewhat depressive mode i get in until Jan 1. but because when i checked my bank balance on Monday morning, i found the situation with Hertz had spiralled into a nightmarish event. $500 was withdrawn from my account using my Visa check card (which must be in their computer) to cover the deductible for “my accident” (which did not occur, see previous posts if curious, i’m not writing it all down again). without my knowledge or authorization. of course i flipped out completely, first called my bank, who were incredibly helpful and kind. they suggested i speak with Hertz first and for two days i tried to contact someone who would not return calls and seemed to enjoy keeping me stewing in a panic. finally last evening, he said he would return my funds, but i am keeping the claim open at my bank, just in case he blows it off, like he did speaking with me.

i am still stunned and still feel like puking constantly. i am very fair, honest and loyal with the few businesses i work with, because i think business is mostly a necessary hassle and i prefer to keep a good karma going with the ones i work with. to be accused of lying and cheating and to have my statement of facts disregarded is sickening and affects me more than one would imagine. i know i seem like a big sturdy tough woman from the outside, but inside i am falling down and dying. this takes so much energy to deal with. also, i do not like the feeling of bitterness and even HATE that comes into me. i prefer to keep an optimistic mind and think the best of people and events. i hate feeding into the new American spirit of distrust, paranoia, and ME FIRST FUCK YOU that seems prevalent. when something like this happens, i withdraw, don’t like to speak to others, even those i love, and sleep as much as possible and try not to wake until the badness is past. and i remember why i am fairly anti-social and like to stay at my artTable and behind a camera and mostly away from the world.

This entry was posted on Wednesday, December 5th, 2007 at 11:01 am and is filed under random. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. Both comments and pings are currently closed.