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still plugging away ambitiously at this thing and will finish successfully, barring sudden incompetence tonight. it is good to know i can decide to do a thing, then carry it out. though in an almost militant way. it is good to know i can discipline myself to sit down and make *some* art every. single. day. with no excuses. it is good to know i can carry and use a camera every day. it is good to know these things, but i doubt that i will continue an everyday practice. i’m not sure what i will do next, although these exercises have been instructional.
tonight i will carve a pumpkin. the first since the girls have been gone. sometimes i miss them irrationally. like something carved out and made into a happyface? tomorrow i will have a mental health day and do errands and go to the dentist. i may or may not wander the night streets with a camera, snapping pumpkins and ghosty children. i just keep wondering what is next.