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it was a working weekend and a long and tedious one. i have that grumpy feeling this monday morning of “never having any fun never”. i am uneasy and anxious because betsy had many travel misadventures and no one called me to tell me she *finally* made it to taiwan, and then all of them on to malaysia. i guess no news is good news, but this time i am just a little more worried than usual, when they go so far away, so it would have helped to hear for sure. it was hard to sleep last night. but i know when they are off with their dad, they are in another world, having fun. i am glad for that. i am glad they know how to Be Here Now and not drag a bunch of baggage along with them, worries and doubts and obligations. i know they are all fine. this is not whining!
even though it was working weekend, i did manage a little play at the artTable, working on my White On White submission. it looks a little rigid, but i think i might like it. i’m not sure if it is “legal” to post an image of it yet. well hell. it’s MINE, i guess i can. maybe i will.
last week i picked up some films and was quite depressed about them. no magic, although i did like that one very much, and also a couple of shots of the new Bloch Building at the Nelson-Atkins in KC. the other roll was from the Brownie Hawkeye and almost made me weep with its lameness. the other roll was not developed as their E6 machine was broken. i said what?? and looked at the roll of film. great. i was making driveby shots in texas with expensive slide film. oh i can hardly wait to see *that* waste. i think there is something wrong with my vision lately. i am just not *seeing* the way i want, or can’t communicate. or something. perhaps it is just too hot to function.
i just looked down and realized these Tsubo’s look really funny on my feet.