030107
i’m back but quiet. busy tired and disconnected still.
did i leave part of myself in tejas?
probably. definitely.
it was a very good trip. i saw NO obviously fatal accidents. it was certainly worth two 12-hour days of driving to spend 3 whole days with one of my girlies and also see my mama and sisters and little kathy and kurtis and and and just BE there. it was warm. here it is early springish. today cold with wild winds. lion weather. those crocuses on the side of the house will open tomorrow anyway.
we did not do lots of things and i did not make lots of images in texas. but i was very happy there. now i am back to “normal”. i am glad to be home with my poet. i am adapting to returning to work. i am wondering about my town. whether it will become over-developed like austin and be awful. i have a knot in my gut because betsy is somewhere in france and i have not spoken to her and don’t even know if she is travelling alone or is safe or WHAT. i am trying to be cool, but it is hard. “all circuits are busy. please try your call later.” for days. i wonder if margaret is happy. really. i miss the girls-part of my life a LOT. i read my first mystery paperback since my poet moved in. started it at my sister’s house when we slept over. finished tonight. i wonder if he is disappointed in me? no worries. i love the good books he brings me most. but it was a good escape. especially for Right Now. i need the weekend to touch base with myself again. maybe to touch that sewing machine too. brand new. i have not even threaded it. don’t even ask about messy hands. i can’t remember. and i don’t want to think about all that stuff the dentist said either.