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then on sunday, we also went out in the car again. first looking for the big sunflower field, which i could not find, then through some small towns, then to Perry Lake where we walked around a bit and looked at the different wildflowers growing in the rocks along the shore. i played at making abstracts out of macros. not very successful or interesting really. my head hurt and my spine, too. ugh. then home. we ate - bread, mozzarella, olives, a salad of tomatoes, avocado and scallions (which always leave a taste in my mouth as if i’ve eaten from a garbage pail). a quiet evening mostly. i feel a little drab and dreary right now. that happens sometimes. often i know what sets it off, other times it is a mystery. (although if i think hard enough, i can figure it out, if i really want to. most times i prefer to let it pass, as it will) i prefer not to dwell in the dark place, although i go there often enough, for a short time. contrast is interesting.
i have done pretty well at summer this year. i have been outdoors a LOT, and worn appropriate clothing even, though i was seldom really comfortable with what felt like too little. but today it felt wonderful to put on my black knee-high tights and TWO layers of shirting, with the tight black skirt that is going to have to be replaced very very soon. boots soon. and SWEATERS. oh good.