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this is a new favorite image. it’s from FILM. and my Smena8M. i’m always pretty excited when i make images using film and actually LIKE them. i doubt anyone would love this as i do, but that’s ok. i have a bad habit of opening the back of the camera sometimes because i can’t remember if i have film in there or not. i try to do it in the dark, but sometimes Things Happen. i usually like the surprises. this is the remaining wall of a wonderful old garage or carriage house by our old studio on the east side. i have photos of it. i want to find them now. when i drove by one day, on the way to feed traci’s kitties, i saw it GONE and thought “that fucking developer! i thought he wasn’t going to tear down any structures???” so a month or so ago, traci and i were having a photo wander near there and went to investigate. it seems there was a fire instead of demolition. (yeah. right.)
we are having indian summer and there is a wicked wind out there. it seems evil. the whole world seems evil this week. but i know it is not nature that i should worry about. it is the people. i try to be openhearted and conscious, but sometimes living as an alien, with my head in the sand and trying not to pay attention to all of the IDIOTS in the world seems preferable. but then i feel guilty for not Doing Something. what in the hell could i DO? really.