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tulipTree : lawrence ks : spring 2010

everything is becoming quite lovely. everything is blooming like crazy. the birds are making a huge racket. even though it is back to being cool (thank god. i was so NOT ready for 80 degrees already), i sleep with the windows cracked open so those noisy friends can wake me. they start so early. and of course there is plenty of sneezing, thanks to all of the treePowder. funny, even though everything is so lovely, i have been a little grumpy and almost depressed. some of the reasons i know but am avoiding, but i think it is also partly because the sweetness of spring passes FAR too quickly and then for months and months there is nothing but HOT SUMMER. my most depressing season. every year i hate summer more, though i try hard to embrace the season. it is such an uncomfortable time for me. ugh. well, i will worry about it when it gets here. which i keep saying about everything. i have started to worry about the future, too. like where am i going and what am i going to do next year when i finally escape here? the idea of seeking a new job fills me with dread. and of course i will have to. and where??? i am guessing i will end up in Texas, but it is SUMMER there for most of the year!! ugh. i’ll think about it tomorrow! right now, i will just wander around and look at the Pretty Things.

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