cobaltika

duplex : patee neighborhood, st. joseph missouri : nov 2009

well, yes, it was a long lonely weekend and i had lots of time to bust the artSlump and bust the photoSlump, but i did neither. sure i made my hands a little busy, then put the things away to dry and now when i look at them … blech. not good. soul-less. and played with some more of the St. Joseph pictures, wishing i could go back there and make more, but i did not go make new pictures. not here. i thought i would die if i had to go out and clump around on slippery lumps of ice and snow. and it was so dreary. i stayed in and became agoraphobic instead. i was almost glad to go back to work today. and now i am getting fat again. dammit. maybe i don’t like seasons so much after all. i’ve almost had enough winter and it is not even the solstice yet. jeez.

i’m not really as grumpy as i sound. but it was just a loooooooooong weekend. i really need to have more fun, but am not quite sure how that would manifest itself. it seems odd that it is almost xmasTime. i am staying here this year. no $$ to go visit family again so soon. hopefully i will get to go see my mama in january. i will hang out with the poet though he has to work on xmasDay. we will go to lots of movies!

i hate the way i feel dead when i am not making art.

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